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Thursday, May 10th, 2007

Subject:Rant: Part 1
Time:9:13 pm.
Mood: tired.
Now that I've made my {personally} controversial decision to stay in marching band {pending who my section leader is} I've been remembering alot about past seasons and everything that plauged them. My "fuck the elitists" belief remains intact. That said, time to set marching band straight the best I can.

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Friday, April 13th, 2007

Time:1:09 pm.
Mood: blah.
After such an abscence {from school as well} you'd think I'd have alot to say. I do, but my writing sucks. I've come to that realization when I tried starting my book, which has an excellent premise and alot to work with.

So as of recently my own personal problems came for me. Since I haven't really educated most of you, I suffer from over-worrying, which is usually OK until it comes to politics. When confusion, doubt, etc. comes to mind about that, I get paniced, manically depressed, etc. I went back into treatment for about a week. Complaints about the conditions of the psychiatric ward will come later. No, it wasn't like in 12 Monkeys {which I happen to be addicted to} but it was bullshitty in it's way. Spokane was so much better.

I'm now taking such a mountain of meds it's amazing. It includes anti-OCD, anti-depressant, and until recently anti-psychotic. The anti-psychotic caused extreme restlessness, since it was a non-problem, I got to go off it.

I saw TMNT just recently. Parts of it were horribly acted, predictable, silly, etc., but it was a fun enough movie that all that's forgivable. I've also seen Zodiac recently. I've wanted to see a number of movies recently, but restlessness got in the way of that.

I'm in one fuck of a hole having missed two concerts and a contest, any bright ideas?
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Wednesday, October 11th, 2006

Time:10:08 pm.
There's people getting to the field late.....and it's the rest of the band's fault! Of course, how stupid of me not to notice.
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Friday, June 2nd, 2006

Time:8:03 pm.
Mood: cynical.
Ok folks, I'm on a bit of a limited schedule right now, so details will come later about how this is quite a nice place that I would be enjoying with more personal peace, but everything everyone else wants to do is driving me crazy.

Also, with no AIM {what the fuck} I'll need some conversation, because a whole week with only my family to talk to is the shits. So if you have any worthwile conversation, leaving such a comment would be nice. But then again, I don't know when I'll be getting back to this.
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Monday, May 29th, 2006

Time:11:39 am.
Time to continue. Chances are you haven't seen the entry from roughly 12 hours, begin from there if true.

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Time:12:07 am.
This is an ambition I've had for a long time. This, and the following series of entries I'd like to title: "Rise and Collapse: My first two years of marching.

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Friday, May 26th, 2006

Time:3:33 pm.
Mood: awake.
Typically, when I make plans they drift out the window nice and gradually. In this case however, it was instant. Around some time yesterday after I'd gotten home I was heading toward the shower when the phone rang, then I heard my mom say Leah's name. She had called to invite me to come join "6 bajillion" people at the little X-Men midnight showing. Not a movie I'd have much interest to see, but it is of course the thought that counts. I would've gone and loved it all if it were a movie I knew I hated. So, last night I:

-Witnessed another drug-induced introduction to a song.
-Saw the skit Brandon had been fawning about so much and thought I was tripping myself.
-Had the most wonderful and hilarious time at Denny's.
-Saw a film I was expecting to be crap and was quite pleasently surprised.
-I believe I also made a friend.

So yes, I went to this movie expecting predictability, cheesy overdone action, plotlessness, crappy acting, and stupid immature unfunny and unecceesary jokes. That last thing there was the only one that was forced upon me. Sure, the film wasn't terribly clever, but nevertheless the action sequences were believeable and entertaining, acting ranged from mediocre to decent, and in terms of predictability I was very pleased. So, quite a decent movie in comparison to giant mounds of crap I was picturing.
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Thursday, May 11th, 2006

Subject:Do you give it a 98 because it has a good beat and you can dance to it?
Time:9:03 pm.
Mood: creative.
I just finished this book review, and I'm rather pleased with it. Please Read. Read more...Collapse )
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Monday, May 1st, 2006

Time:8:50 pm.
Mood: groggy.
So, I visited the mall tonight. Here's the highlights.

-Suncoast is dead. Who needs it anyway. Across from it, stupid FYE turned into a tacky clothes store.

-I saw the V For Vendetta comic at Barnes and Noble. Interesting, but too expensive. But since I had the time I scanned through Stephen King's 'Cujo.' Underrated novel, very much so.

-Hot topic has expanded it's collection of T-Shirts for crappy contemporary music. I find it amazing that while there were shirts for Family Guy, Nightmare On Elm Street, Night Of The Living Dead, Serenity, and Pulp Fiction there was NO FUCKING V FOR VENDETTA APPAREL.

-There was a guy I ran across several times who was wearing a WrestleMania 19 jersey. That was awesome.

-When done wandering it was close to the designated meeting time, so I decided that maybe I could find my mom near the end of fucking Macy's. As I was walking through it occured to me how strange a short guy with uncut hair, a scruffy goatee, and a tye-dyed shirt must have looked in the women's clothes/accessories section. Lots of nasty perfume, could hardly stand it.

-After finding my mom I went to Gamestop for the third time. The first time was to browse, the second to get advice on a couple games, the third to buy them as I was 36 days too young to do that on my own. Ridiculous. The salesman and I had a brief chat about it, and my mom mentioned as leaving that grotesqely violent video games haven't seen to have done anything bad to him.

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Thursday, April 27th, 2006

Time:10:05 pm.
Mood: blah.
Well, at this point recalling Seattle weekend is pointless. So let's go ahead with editorialCollapse )
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Monday, April 24th, 2006

Subject:Scorpion wins, bitch
Time:10:07 pm.
Mood: apathetic.
Quote of the day-"It's time to start reading some Billy Shakspere"

Soo, in between studying and the baseball game, I found time to try out the first Mortal Kombat for Sega Genesis. The game play is interesting, your character fights all the other six, then is involved in a "mirror match" After that, you go through "endurance" in which you sort of take on a tag team, when you defeat one, the other comes in. It's a two-out-of-three like all the other matches, except it's like you have half as much HP or your opponent has twice as much. The continues you get depend on how many credits you set for the game you have, which is more arcade-like, unlike Street Fighter, in which you have unlimited continues, which hardly matters because once the difficulty level reaches five stars it's total bullshit, and Sagat is near-impossible on two. I, of course, set it on very easy with six continues. Sonya is awesome, as Scorpion I was pretty much killing all the competition until she kicked my ass. So, I continued as her and lost to the damnned Raden, and won my first endurance match as Liu Kang before parent interrupted me. It's important to remember that this is the Friday The 13th Part 1 of the Mortal Kombat series, by current standards it's unbelievably tame. There's not a drop of blood unless you execute a fatality. Otherwise, the controls aren't perfect, but aren't bad. The graphics, obviously intended to be realistic, are quite successful.

Oh, and I plan to make a trio of pre-thought-of entries sometime soon. They will consist off:
-A recollection of a Seattle weekend.
-An editorial on the destruction of innocent life for publicity by the evil Tom Cruise.
-An essay on the politics of Thank You For Smoking.

And to wrap up today's appointment I beat my shrink at a game of pool.
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Tuesday, April 18th, 2006

Subject:You listen to me now
Time:6:18 pm.
Mood: blah.
Current events:

Video game search yesterday was unsuccessful. However, some humor did occur. From Nielsen's we were directed to a store called Game Crazy, which was "near Winco" Then, with a lack of success, I went into Big 5 to ask for help and the cashier said "Oh, that's like, right next to Applebee's" But it still didn't turn up, so I decided to ask inside Hollywood Video for directions. And just guess what I found in there. While I didn't find the game I was looking for, I was tempted to go back to Big 5 and say "You're an idiot, how did you get a job?" I was told though, I could find it on amazon for about a buck. However, I have paranoia it would arrive whilst in Seattle and wouldn't last sitting on my porch. So I'll probably order it tomorrow, then find a good sized video game store in Seattle and if I find it there then I'll give one to Nielsen's.

I've been indulging in the Monday Night War and "The Death of WCW" book. For those of you who haven't a clue, WCW was a wrestling industry that had amazing decreasing popularity from 1999, for a variety of reasons. Perhaps the biggest problem was their insistince on pushing old worn out pieces of crap, instead of younger talent that audiences loved. They also put together boring and predictable story lines, with an increasing level of raunchiness. How bad did it get? The price value of the company decreased by 99% in less than a year. The Monday Night War covers how the company tried to hurt its rivals while thier programs went head to head. While I'm about the only wrestling fan in probably hundreds of miles, I don't really care what people think, I can pretty much thumb my nose at anybody who gives me that "Ewww, you watch that? Don't you know it's fake" crap, because that's like going up to someone who walks out of a movie theater and saying, "Omg, you watch movies? Don't you know they're fake, those people are just acting!" Get my message?

Then today after the God-awful WASL in German, an idiot {of the many in the class} was for some reason telling his friends he didn't like Rammstein, und die Frau {who of course has to include her input on anything she hears} said "Ooh, they're lyrics are really negative." Now, my first thought was "What the hell would you expect?" but then she included that the said lyrics were racist. Hmm...what? Now, it's granted that I haven't heard any of their more recent music, but still though, the website I got my translations from is a big-name site, so it couldn't get away with bullshit or errored-up translations, and I haven't interpreted that. Am I just failing to notice something, because if I am I feel really stupid.

That's about all, other then still being covered in a mountain of work and that of what I've most recently heard, I can safely say I'm part of the anti-Tom Cruise movement.
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Friday, April 14th, 2006

Subject:Nihilism and then some
Time:11:09 pm.
Mood: curious.
Well my friends, this is some damning long reading, but you could learn something.

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Wednesday, March 22nd, 2006

Time:5:28 pm.
Mood: contemplative.
Well, friends, now's the time for an explanation of what went down. It ain't pretty.

On the morning of March 2 I overreacted to a large amount of stress and attempted suicide via alcohol abuse. My dad, who knew that I was having a difficult time, came to check on me. I was un-drunk by 7PM but had a very sore throat due to hospital breathing stuff. A psychiatrist who saw me later that day suggested that such a reaction is due to large anxiety, and that such anxiety could be caused by a serious disorder.

So, for almost three weeks, I was in a wing at a huge hospital in Spokane. Recounting of everything that went down will come at a later time. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, and am now taking lithium and may take cyraquil later.

For the next 180 days, I will be on an outpatient treatment. I am required to:

-See a psychiatrist/therapist
-Take perscribed medicine
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Due to my medicine I'm taking, and my doctor's insistince, I can't drink. I don't think there's risk of abuse, since the only instance of that I've had was intentional. Perhaps I'll consider drinking again if I stop taking meds {what exactly will happen there is unclear at this point} It would require serious and careful consideration. In the meantime, with the "no alcohol as long as I'm taking meds" rule in effect I don't even have to thinking about it. Please don't mistake me though, I don't think I'm making a big deal over this, but it's an interesting situation.

And of course, I extend my biggest appreciation for everyone who signed that card. Sorry I worried you all. I have learned much from this experience, by all means it may in the end have turned out to have made me stronger.
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Sunday, February 12th, 2006

Time:9:25 pm.
Mood: apathetic.
So this week is filled with activities to be performed once home from school. Video games be set aside.

Monday-Make sure to be ready for challenge.
Tuesday-Do Geography project in which I have to make up a culture of some sort.
Wednesday-Prepare for Chem quiz.
Thursday-Finish album cover.

So yeah. Last night I stayed up late to finish homework so I could slack off today. I won't know if it was worth it until tomorrow morning, didn't get up until about noon today.

I'm still playing Sonic hardcore.
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Saturday, February 11th, 2006

Subject:You thought I'd never come back, didn't you?
Time:8:23 pm.
Mood: weird.
After the miserable failure that was my first LJ, I'm trying again. I'm sitting here alone in my house tonight, and bored.

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